I kept my voice warm as I replied, “How very thoughtful of you,” while I watched her eyes pause on the Japanese ceramic vases arranged on my mantel.
The tea began about a year after the wedding when she arrived one afternoon with a thermos, claiming she had found a special herbal blend for sleep in a wellness shop.
“I remember you mentioned you had been waking up very early lately, so I thought this might help you rest more deeply,” she said as she poured a cup for me.
I accepted the drink because refusing such a gesture requires a reason, and women of my generation were trained to preserve social smoothness even when our instincts object.
The tea tasted of chamomile and honey, but there was something faintly bitter beneath the sweetness that I could not quite identify at the time.
That night I slept much too heavily, and the next morning I woke with a fog in my head that felt chemical in quality as if my mind had been wrapped in damp wool.
I stood in the kitchen holding a spoon and found that I could not remember whether I had already fed the cat, even though I had not owned a pet in over a decade.