But there, beside Richard’s casket, with rain falling like judgment and that empty chair staring back at her, Eleanor stopped lying.
“Begin,” she said.
Her voice did not break.
The pastor opened his Bible.
As he spoke of dust and mercy, of grief and eternal rest, Eleanor stood perfectly still. Her black wool coat clung damply to her shoulders. She heard little of the service. Her mind had moved backward, not to Richard’s final breath but to the conversation they had shared three weeks before, when his body was already failing but his mind remained sharp enough to cut through every illusion she still tried to protect.
They had been alone in his hospital room after midnight. Chicago glowed beyond the window in a grid of amber lights. Richard’s once-powerful frame had been reduced by illness until his wrists looked strange to her, too fragile for the man who had built an empire by gripping life with both hands. The tubes had only recently been removed from his throat, and every word cost him effort.
“He’s not ready for it, Ellie,” Richard had said.
Eleanor had known who he meant.
Thomas.